been a long time since my last blog.. nothing really exciting.. skool started up again.. yeah yeah its a bore but hey wat can you do?  you jus have to get it over with!! that's where i'm at now... skool! waiting till my next class starts. there's really nothing else to do but wait... ugh! lets see....wat's on my mind!
i need to get more hours at work cuz i spend too much money haha.. and with daddy gone shit.. i don't really have back up.. you know when you go out with some friends and like you end up paying for everything... its a pain isn't it!! yeh well that's where most of my moneys been going! but then again i invite so i guess i bring it on myself! but watever that's not the point. i jus need to stop spending money cuz if not i'm not going to have enough to go back to cali in feb. and march! damn it!
ahh cali yes.. i do love the place.. haha.. the bay is soooooo nice.. the weather there is always great never to hot and not cold til nite fall or if you're in SF but that's different. i jus wanna stay where my cuzins stay in los altos oooh soo nice ;D hehe... soon i'm hoping... oh shit i still have to talk to my dad about moving there... reminder to myself haha ;D so lame.. but yeah wen my dad and i went there in july i didn't wanna come home cuz it was jus that nice plus i didn't get to see everything/everyone i wanted to see... j you were hella busy when i was there i didn't get to even see you at the club. we were there at the same time damn it!! but i'm not mad at you... why should i be?! haha
*sigh.. young ones grow up soo fast... don't they?? my cuz-o cracked me up... i taught him some much.. i think i taught him a few bad things tho... haha jim-bo took me everywhere we bonded a lot... i think i was suppose to do that with kathy but i didn't opps! haha i ment a few of jim-bo's friends and they were great haha ;D i with a rene ;D haha and starts with an n ends with oel... haha so many insiders with jim-bo... ishly ish of the ish ish nish... hahaha that one was hella funny! my friends make funny of me sooo much cuz i use "ish" so much.
had a few deep moments with danny... now this boy is jus too old for this age ;D hehe.. jk but yeah he has taken hella responsiblitys since tito danny's death :*< he has a lot on his plate but he makes it seem sooo easy.. every family has there problems but i don't know of any that can make it seem all good but inside everythings not right!
seeing my aunt and cuzins made me think of my life in a different way...i don't know if you can call it life changing but i jus made me see that things can be worse... cuz i always thought that my life was hell and that trying to bond with your family was a waste of time... but in truth its not! losing a family member can be the hardest thing.. although i havent myself experienced it first hand and i hope that the day i do i'll be prepared.. wow thinking of losing my dad is jus impossible for me... i depend on my dad to much... he is my biggest supporter... it might not seem like it but i do miss him when he's gone... with a my freedom i get it's nice and when he comes back i get crabby cuz i don't wat i want wen i want..i feel constricted... then i feel soo releaved when he leaves again... i don't know why... i worry about him jus like i know he worries about me when he's away... the bad thing is i always thing of the bad things that could happen to him which makes me worry more!!! ugh! i don't know!
enough of that...wow ran out of things to say hahaha!!

<b>RIP TITO DANNY</B> one year this thanksgiving!